So here it goes...I haven't posted in a long time and you have let me know it. I feel like I've got writers block tonight. I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind that I have no idea where to start. First off, I know I've said it before but it seems some of you didn't get the message last time. I DONT CARE what you think, feel or act about me. But keep my friends, family and other people out of it. Enough said. I do care about people and their feelings. I care about their problems. Anything that anyone tells me stays between me and that person and I swear when people start asking me for info I draw the line. I've recently started A new life for myself and kicked a lot of people out, ay the same time I've carried a lot of people into my life that i believe will turn me around. I also will be moving with in the month. For now, staying in the Pierre Area and I will Graduate from Riggs High School in Pierre, SD. No more stanley county shit. The biggest mistake I ever made was changing schools. There are the SMALL handful of reasons it benifits but it doesnt out weigh the number of negative reasons. Hopefully during the summer of 2011 I will be moving to Sioux Falls, SD or surrounding areas. No official statements yet but thats the plan.
Relationships. People, I everyone has them, nothing special. I know A LOT of you were shocked and questioned the splitting of Darian and I. I know some of you thought she was pretty cool. a little over 2 years really tossed away and benifited 1 person I can think of. Not Darian, but she knows who she is and I hope she's reading this. If not, I guess its another person counted on my "tossed" list. That would hurt. Now everyone was confused by my week and a half long dating of Sarah. The reason for that ending so suddenly was because Sarah and I were too good of friends for a relationship to work. Rumor is on the street that Sarah used Darian to get to me....I can't say it isn't true because I really have no idea. I hope not because if so Bitch Move. Other rumors on the street have included things that I could put my life on that never ;happened. But its my word vs. theirs...and to some, (I have given them a reason) my word doesnt meanmuch. Like I've said time and time again. E-Mail me if you want the facts: chemicalchrist10@gmail.com. This is the last time darian, sarah, and those relationships will ever be publicly shared.
Mistakes. We all make them, some more severe than others but..it happens. Well actually today I made one of mine. I will not share the mistake but those involved will know what I'm talking about. It never should of happened, it was wrong of me, and I question why the other(s) went along. Unless I missed something? Confusion. I feel like I've wronged so many people lately.
THANK YOU. I can't thank Alex and his mother for everything they've done thus far. They're helping me with something I really did want to ask help with. Also thanks to Jesse, Morgan, Ryan and Sarah for being such awesome friends and always listening. Thanks to the 3 glasses of wine that helped me though this post.
I know I've been anti-drinking for the last 18 months but I will continue the counter. as long as I dont end up like before...I'll be alright. I hope everyone keeps it real. Stay tuned.
Relationships. People, I everyone has them, nothing special. I know A LOT of you were shocked and questioned the splitting of Darian and I. I know some of you thought she was pretty cool. a little over 2 years really tossed away and benifited 1 person I can think of. Not Darian, but she knows who she is and I hope she's reading this. If not, I guess its another person counted on my "tossed" list. That would hurt. Now everyone was confused by my week and a half long dating of Sarah. The reason for that ending so suddenly was because Sarah and I were too good of friends for a relationship to work. Rumor is on the street that Sarah used Darian to get to me....I can't say it isn't true because I really have no idea. I hope not because if so Bitch Move. Other rumors on the street have included things that I could put my life on that never ;happened. But its my word vs. theirs...and to some, (I have given them a reason) my word doesnt meanmuch. Like I've said time and time again. E-Mail me if you want the facts: chemicalchrist10@gmail.com. This is the last time darian, sarah, and those relationships will ever be publicly shared.
Mistakes. We all make them, some more severe than others but..it happens. Well actually today I made one of mine. I will not share the mistake but those involved will know what I'm talking about. It never should of happened, it was wrong of me, and I question why the other(s) went along. Unless I missed something? Confusion. I feel like I've wronged so many people lately.
THANK YOU. I can't thank Alex and his mother for everything they've done thus far. They're helping me with something I really did want to ask help with. Also thanks to Jesse, Morgan, Ryan and Sarah for being such awesome friends and always listening. Thanks to the 3 glasses of wine that helped me though this post.
I know I've been anti-drinking for the last 18 months but I will continue the counter. as long as I dont end up like before...I'll be alright. I hope everyone keeps it real. Stay tuned.
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